mmm sleep

So I am not sure why, but the past 2 weeks I have had the hardest time staying asleep at night. I can think of one night in that time frame that I haven't woken up at least twice in a night. I am not sure why and no matter what I have changed it has stayed relatively constant. The only factor that seems to have affected my sleep was when I took some time walking Maddie to just think and reflect. Not worry about anything and just take a breath and relax. So that is my focus tonight, lets see if it works.

sorry for the delay/grounding

Sorry for the delay in posts everyone. It has been a very stressful last couple weeks (with the wedding planning and all that) I would love to delve further into it, but I think that may not be very appropriate so instead I wanted to talk to you about an interesting calming technique I learned about recently that has really helped me through this ridiculously stressful time.

I have always been very interested in the super natural/spiritual/occult or whatever you really want to call it. To me it makes just as much sense as religion and I have always really thought of the two as one in the same. There are natural forces in the world (there is no way to dispute that)and it fascinates me to no end what people from different places have built off of those natural forces.

Recently I have been on a Buffy the Vampire Slayer kick (yea I am not ashamed to admit it)And I have become interested in the actual practice of Wicca, not the witchcraft practiced in the show. I had done some reading into the topic when I was just getting into college, but never really had a lot of luck.

Being a little better off financially I actually went to the book store and found a couple of books on the topic. One of the books was what you would expect cast spells blah blah blah. The other book however was what I had been looking for all along. It delved more into the history and information on Wicca. Inside of that book I found a chapter on grounding.

Grounding is the idea that you take all of the bad energy out of your body and put it into something else. From what I think energy is a natural thing, whether it be "bad" or "good" is all in how it is making you feel. The person in book said the best way to describe was how Obi Wan described the force in Star wars
"It's an energy field created by all living things. It surrounds us and penetrates us. It binds the galaxy together. "

When there is an abundance of energy you feel stressed or overwhelmed. As a trick to book suggested both meditation and grounding. I found grounding a bit easier. The idea is to picture the energy in your body that you want to rid yourself of and then picture yourself pushing that energy out. This has really helped me through the stressful times of the wedding planning and all that. It may seem goofy, but if it works then that's what counts.

Ps. I am once more reiterating to the world since it seems some people may have forgotten. Don't fuck with my loved ones, or we will have issues.

trying people for someones suicide.

So the story of Phoebe Prince has been an interesting one to say the least. It is sad that a young girl felt the need to take her own life, but I have been having a real hard time coming to grips with the fact that they are trying others for bullying her to death. I am not even saying that that isn't why she killed herself, but I can't help but see a place for abuse of this legislation.

First off what is bullying? I tried to google the legal definition in Massachusetts, but couldn't find any so this will have to do.
"A person is bullied when he or she is exposed, repeatedly and over time, to negative actions on the part of one or more other persons, and he or she has difficulty defending himself or herself."

Let me put out a scenario for you right. Lets say that your teenage son doesn't get along with your neighbors teenage son. They go to the same school, but are fine there, its only when they are at home that its a problem. They like to call each other names and bluster about like young adults (boys) are prone to do.
Now lets say that the neighbor boy kills himself. Lets ASSUME for this scenario it was unrelated to what your son is doing. Obviously there is no way to prove that, but for a second lets assume. Now his family could say well your son bullied my son and now my son is dead therefore its your fault. Well in this assumption we know that this isn't the case.

Obviously thats just a thing that could happen, but in there is one very important factor...THERE IS NO WAY TO PROVE IT. Bullying doesn't equal suicide. And its not even considered negligence or anything like that. Maybe in this case it doesn't apply, but the thought needs to be put forth before it becomes a law. What about the first person who isn't nice to someone, but isn't the cause of their suicide...what about them?

By making legislation against bullying they are saying that its never ok to do anything that anyone doesn't like. Can you say the beginning of the end????...I can

dreams

It always fascinates me when I dream. I know very little about what actually goes on in your dreams, but you have to wonder why you mind puts certain things together and makes those things into a story. And you also have to wonder why have nightmares? Do they serve a purpose or is it just coincidence that they are scary or whatever?

It also makes me think of how advanced a system our brain is. To think that our entire body, both our voluntary and involuntary systems, is being run all the time by our brain is almost unfathomable. It always makes me think just how interesting an adaptation a brain is. The only advantage I can see that our relatively weak body and our strong brains is the ability to not be limited to one environment. For a long time I thought that was kind of silly since, without technology, we are completely helpless. I am getting more and more into MF's camp of our evolution being technology. Just a thought